Laevi

It made me think... and I realize I'm the happiest when I'm home.

I wasn't happy with myself in the weekend (or after the weekend, really) when I realized I did nothing but read, write, and make a few images.

I'm not happy when my alarm clock rings. I am happy when I can go to sleep...

Work is tedious, I wasn't pleased with an assessment, but after that I was more relaxed and less impatient. I hate critique, but it does wake me up.

The years is nearly gone and I wonder where it has been. One more month and I will be 41... A few more days and Theo will be 37. The fact we're still together makes me happy.

RP doesn't make me happy at the moment, because there aren't many posts... :( But at the other hand, it gives me time to write other stories.

All in all, if something makes me happy I will post it. I have such a boring life... >.<

Current Mood:

blank

Jeesh, be original. It's hard enough as it is, to achieve your own style in such a limited 3D program, and I worked years for it. Go search for your own characters, and tweak them, instead of using the same as me.

It's the same with lighting and morphs. How may times did I get requests, asking me to send them my morphs, my lights, or to make a tutorial so they can copy my hard work?

I'm willing to help, peeps. I do send you a morph, or base light, but I'll never send you my whole 50GB (!) collection of figures, props, poses, lights and camera settings. For that, you have to do like me; work on it. For years. Practice, until you know how to use that program, spend time and money on it, and for Christ sake, be original.

Asking me 'where can I find it!' gets the following answer: 'go look for it! Search!'.

The only reason I give you stuff is because I hate what you make, it makes my eyes bleed, my toes curl, and I want you to improve.

Or because I like you and you send me stuff in return.

</rant>

Current Mood:

annoyed

I hope I'm not a workaholic.

It's slow today. I'm bored. I'll probably get other work in a moment, which always happens when it's quiet. I don't have to coach on the floor today, so I'm stuck to my chair. Meh.

I asked for a day off next week, because I simply don't have time otherwise. I have to shop for stuff, I have to do things at the bank. In the weekends, I'm too pooped to do anything.

The migraines I have at the weekends, are because I work too hard. I can't sleep in, it makes me sick, so now I go to bed earlier to get my sleep. It works. I feel better.

Lucky I have my images to make. What would I do without my pretty men? :) And my everlasting, neverending soap RP with Ryo... I love those guys we play (although I think Miron didn't find his True One yet XD).

End of thoughts.

Current Mood:

bored

Waking up at 04:45, packing stuff, having coffee (very important) and going at 6. We were off to a boat fair.

Theo works with an older man, in the boat business. Saturday was a day for promoting the company, and affiliating companies. And to sell a bit of old boat-stuff.

While the older man (B) had to visit the hospital earlier because he had tremendous pain in his right shoulder, Theo had only just recovered from a very bad back. They were both still in pain, B having morphine (!) and Theo simply ignoring any discomfort, but sweating like an otter.

My pain was playing up because of the cold (it was freezing!) but I bit through it, not wanting to let them down, so once we were settled we all collapsed. B had taken his wife (M) and her son. They were both utterly useless.

Son went home because he didn't wanna stay, he wasn't having fun at all. We didn't even start yet... but alright. B barked his wife around, to do at least something, like getting us breakfast and making coffee. It brought back memories to the time I used to hold fairs with my ex. Not nice, but this time I could understand B's attitude. Woman... DO SOMETHING! Yes, your knees hurt. But maybe you should've pulled on sneakers and pants, instead of high-heeled open shoes and a short skirt? Yes, it will be warm. It's freezing now. So give us something warm.

Anyway, B and Theo were doing business, and M and I were allowed to have a stroll. I could barely walk, but I wanted to go shopping. It had been years since I entered a store. It was brief but fun, and I felt all refreshed. I just wished I'd brought my cane with me. At least it was sunny, so my sore joints could warm up, making it easier to move.

The fair ended at 4 or 5 in the afternoon. By now the sun was too hot (stupid weather) and we were all too tired to talk much, so we all ignored any pain we may have felt and went to work to clear up.

All, except M who was having a smoke (the woman smokes 3 packages a day...) with some neighbors of her. Woman... please...

You know what I hate? I hate to bust my back, work like mad to go home, and to be watched by three people who do nothing but enjoy having a tan. I want to smack 'em. Finally, the man who was drinking beer (our beer) took a box and brought it to the van. Whoo! His wife only stood in the sun, and eventually... sat down because standing was tiresome. Don't break your nails, darling. More wine?

Finally, we could go home, and I went in the car with M. She wanted to complain about B, for being so mean to her all the time. This time, I didn't listen. I could totally understand B. I phoned Theo to ask if we were going to have a bite somewhere. The connection was bad, but I understood they would be heading off to the warehouse while we should go to M's house. I told her. Did she listen?

She panicked when the men drove into another direction, and despite me telling (almost yelling!) her to go her own way to her house, she kept following them. The men stopped.

Theo asked politely what wasn't clear about the suggestion of going home, and she was all 'Oooh! I didn't understand!'. We exchanged glances. Oh Gods. Take me away. I'm too tired for this shit.

Anyway, by the time we were home, it was 9 in the evening. We went straight to bed. It was the longest day in 8 years; I've grown over a life like this. I slept for 13 hours and now I'm pooped!

And the rest of the week? It will also be busy.

Oh man. Can I go to work please? I need to rest...

Current Mood:

tired

I LOVED working on him. Hope he's how you imagine him.

Did the dishes and cleaned the floor (took me several hours too) and it completely wiped me out.

Having a hubby in the same situation makes it all a bit... odd, lately.

God, I'm bored. >.

Current Mood:

bored

After years, I saw my favorite scenes of Maurice again. Not the whole movie- just the scenes, to refresh the memory.

Now I play a Rammstein DVD and eat chocolate...

For the next hour, I'll be alone, and completely happy.

And when Theo comes home, I'll be even happier.

It can be so simple...

Current Mood:

happy